Dun-DUN-dun!! insomnia strikes again.
okay people... "this is going to feel... a little... weird." sorry, i can't help it, random matrix quotes just fall out of my mouth sometimes. anyway wot i meant woz, i'm going to deviate from the former blog entries' fluffy-ness, (no pun intended...er, never mind) and actually talk about some deeper stuff... and it may feel a bit disjointed if u don't know wot's been swirling around in my head for the past few months. but i'm hoping anyone who's reading this does have some sort of clue...
so my day began as most mondays do, with me thinking of that song that goes "monday, monday" and not being overly excited about life. for that matter, i've had a cranberries song stuck in my head for a few days now, the one that goes "the world is your oyster now, u can do wot u want to do..." and it's annoying coz i don't really feel that way... i'm going to blame it being stuck in my head on the huge billboard i often drive past which declares "the world is my pork chop". yuck. the world is a blah-ish coloured, not overly appetizing substance of questionable origin?
i read john 16.22... "so with you: Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy." oh, i hope so... prayed that wotever it is that God's doing in my life right now, that i don't understand... that he would be successful. i guess i can still pray for him to do his work, even if i don't know wot's going on, right?
...today’s thots on living in seattle...
acceptance... a slow process at times.... i think parts of me are starting to accept living here... not in a "settling for less" sort of way, but in a "this could be good" sort of way.
it's as if i'm really starting to "see" seattle.. not as the semi-boring city in which i grew up, a city that is full of less-exciting memories... but instead, as I would view a new place, looking deeper than just a glance at a familiar landscape. most of me wishes it were not familiar... so i suppose that's why i must look deeper, to see wot i've never noticed before.
at least i live in a new/unfamiliar neighborhood.
today for the first time, i sat in the parking lot of Q, looked around me and realized i'm fond of the little area of interbay that has become my home... home. yeah. perhaps it really is. that's encouraging.
this evening i sat down to take a look at the schedule of classes for fall quarter at Seattle Central Community College... and realized that after 6 years of thinking, dreaming, and wondering, i finally am going to college. maybe i should get excited about that.
and speaking of things to be excited about...
i know this may be appalling to, um, some people i know... but i just bought my first U2 cd today. tonite to be precise, at 10pm. joshua tree. it's in the stereo now, just finished listen to it for the second time. i don't know why i didn't buy any before... it's not that i didn't like them... not that i don't often sing to myself "but i still haven't found wot i'm looking for" when disillusioned with life, or randomly burst out with "IN THE NAME OF LOVE!!" for no apparent reason.... and i absolutely love With or Without You... so i guess there's no good reason for me just now acquiring some U2. i'm glad i did tho.
and lastly, a quote about america, by none other than my friend rebecca:
"america likes to celebrate its history, but it's only 200 years old. It's like an 8 year old saying 'i want to celebrate my life!!' "
yeah. i thot i would scream the other day (the 4th to be exact) if i saw another soccer mom type clad in white tennies and an old navy flag T... i mean, sheesh! so of course in my desperation for sanity, i texted friends in england, who then encouraged me with such things as:
"congratulations you're free from the english"
"How did ur independence day go? no aliens this time then! ha ha."
"and while ur there, have a pint for me"
"quick run for the hills"
believe me, i would have taken that last one quite literally if any hills had been readily available.
well. it's been fun, for sure, but i'm thinking now would be a good time to sleep.
until the next time i get bored of counting sheep,
L<><
okay people... "this is going to feel... a little... weird." sorry, i can't help it, random matrix quotes just fall out of my mouth sometimes. anyway wot i meant woz, i'm going to deviate from the former blog entries' fluffy-ness, (no pun intended...er, never mind) and actually talk about some deeper stuff... and it may feel a bit disjointed if u don't know wot's been swirling around in my head for the past few months. but i'm hoping anyone who's reading this does have some sort of clue...
so my day began as most mondays do, with me thinking of that song that goes "monday, monday" and not being overly excited about life. for that matter, i've had a cranberries song stuck in my head for a few days now, the one that goes "the world is your oyster now, u can do wot u want to do..." and it's annoying coz i don't really feel that way... i'm going to blame it being stuck in my head on the huge billboard i often drive past which declares "the world is my pork chop". yuck. the world is a blah-ish coloured, not overly appetizing substance of questionable origin?
i read john 16.22... "so with you: Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy." oh, i hope so... prayed that wotever it is that God's doing in my life right now, that i don't understand... that he would be successful. i guess i can still pray for him to do his work, even if i don't know wot's going on, right?
...today’s thots on living in seattle...
acceptance... a slow process at times.... i think parts of me are starting to accept living here... not in a "settling for less" sort of way, but in a "this could be good" sort of way.
it's as if i'm really starting to "see" seattle.. not as the semi-boring city in which i grew up, a city that is full of less-exciting memories... but instead, as I would view a new place, looking deeper than just a glance at a familiar landscape. most of me wishes it were not familiar... so i suppose that's why i must look deeper, to see wot i've never noticed before.
at least i live in a new/unfamiliar neighborhood.
today for the first time, i sat in the parking lot of Q, looked around me and realized i'm fond of the little area of interbay that has become my home... home. yeah. perhaps it really is. that's encouraging.
this evening i sat down to take a look at the schedule of classes for fall quarter at Seattle Central Community College... and realized that after 6 years of thinking, dreaming, and wondering, i finally am going to college. maybe i should get excited about that.
and speaking of things to be excited about...
i know this may be appalling to, um, some people i know... but i just bought my first U2 cd today. tonite to be precise, at 10pm. joshua tree. it's in the stereo now, just finished listen to it for the second time. i don't know why i didn't buy any before... it's not that i didn't like them... not that i don't often sing to myself "but i still haven't found wot i'm looking for" when disillusioned with life, or randomly burst out with "IN THE NAME OF LOVE!!" for no apparent reason.... and i absolutely love With or Without You... so i guess there's no good reason for me just now acquiring some U2. i'm glad i did tho.
and lastly, a quote about america, by none other than my friend rebecca:
"america likes to celebrate its history, but it's only 200 years old. It's like an 8 year old saying 'i want to celebrate my life!!' "
yeah. i thot i would scream the other day (the 4th to be exact) if i saw another soccer mom type clad in white tennies and an old navy flag T... i mean, sheesh! so of course in my desperation for sanity, i texted friends in england, who then encouraged me with such things as:
"congratulations you're free from the english"
"How did ur independence day go? no aliens this time then! ha ha."
"and while ur there, have a pint for me"
"quick run for the hills"
believe me, i would have taken that last one quite literally if any hills had been readily available.
well. it's been fun, for sure, but i'm thinking now would be a good time to sleep.
until the next time i get bored of counting sheep,
L<><
posted by LP @ 01:38
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